Tuesday, July 29, 2008
TIME: 12:35 AM
God answers prayers. Although sometimes the answer isn't what was desired, but I do think that it's probably for the best.
Anyway, no O-week for me. Didn't have enough space for little ol' me. Lol. Guess I'm gonna have to rely on my natural charisma to get to know people when school starts.
Half dead from jump rehearsals, my fingers are like red from mashing of the keys. Lol. Such a difficult run for such a simple song. Ah well... just a few more weeks, better practice hard.
Gotta go NUS tomorrow. Cya
Sunday, July 27, 2008
TIME: 12:02 AM
It's only when you are truly faced with the circumstances that you will really understand what others in that same place were going through. It's only when you have to make this kind of decisions that you wish you could split yourself in two and have the best of both worlds. But I guess that would make things too easy and where would the challenge and commitment be then. Haha, never thought I would have to decide between attending orientation(and missing 1 jump rehearsal) and not going(and miss knowing people). But then I suppose God knew how smooth my life has been so far and sometimes I do need things to be shook up to see what's what. Now this might seem small to some, but truly I'm worried that the wrong decision here might have repercussions over the next few years of my uni life. There's nothing wrong with both of course, both are good for the advancement in the KOG.
But actually right now, there's really nothing much I can do now can I, except to trust in God. The more I think about it the more confused I get, and so, to God I place this, in trust of His plan for me. If He wants me to go, I'm definite He will find a way to show it to me. And yes I do know that this is quite obvious, but sometimes I just need to write it out to see how I'm feeling and what I need to do.
Well the good thing about next week is that no one can ever say that I'm slacking my life away, wasting my giftings or being apathetic in general. Lol. I basically have my week packed all the way until sun with SOW(that's Science Orientation Week) taking up almost half of it. And bidding for modules and matric will take up the other half with rehearsals taking up my nights. I'm actually excited for the week. It's been awhile since I've been this busy.
I'm actually feeling quite lousy at the moment... haha... being incredibly mel... I really do think that I worry too much about stuff. So I'm gonna put the memory verse for this week here. And I wanted to not refer to my bible. But oh well, I still haven't memorized it.
Phil4:6-7"Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition,with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your heart and your mind in Christ Jesus."
P.S. Is it actually possible for a close friendship to backslide into a more surface friendship? Yes I do sometimes wonder about strange things.
Thursday, July 24, 2008
TIME: 12:25 AM
Whee! Been quite a tiring few days, what with all the overnight mahjong and symphonic band practs and all. But guess its better than not doing anything yeah?
Went for my first Alpha session today. Quite a hoot with the kung-fu panda game where we play marvel vs. capcom(a version of hai dai and i can't really explain any further) in kung fu panda style!
It's really interesting to be sharing and learning more about Christianity in such a big group, I mean, it almost feel like service, but its not... lol... I guess I'm just not used to it yet, but still a great way for people to know more or to start to question more. What's more, its not some dry apologetics kind of seminar. Think have to affirm the Alpha(?) team for putting in a lot of effort to brighten up America room and for all the superhero vid clips. The topic was Who is Jesus and they linked it to superheroes. Made it all interesting. Lol.
Anyway, have to start getting ready for the band pract tomorrow, which of course I'm not... lol... listening and writing out parts are a pain... so I appreciate anyone who does it and would like to do it for me too :P
Anyway, watched a clip during the Alpha session today about the bridge diagram and thought it was a very good and touching clip. Its about a bridgemaster who love his son very much but one day had to make a decision between killing his son, or letting a train load of ppl die. Think I'll leave it at that because I don't think words can do justice to the emotions you'll feel. It's really good :) somehow made the bridge diagram more serious and personal to me(yes I actually thought the bridge diagram was a little impersonal) But enjoy.
Think the anguish that God went through to save us through the death of Jesus would be much greater than that man, especially since God would probably love His son more than anyone ever could, so if you did feel something when you saw that man's face, how much more would you feel if you saw God right at that moment. Just something to think about.
Sunday, July 20, 2008
TIME: 3:48 PM
Man. This blog is sooooooo irritating, change template also got problems. But yay, finally got it going again. And I intend to do much more with it this time... hopefully.
Anyway, I've been going for the Go Forth Asians Missions Conference 2008 over the past 2 days. It's been really an amazing and enriching time. My eyes were literally falling out of all the eye opening experiences during the conference. All the time we talk about missions and preparation for missions, without really knowing exactly how much effort and time that we really have to put in so that we are truly prepared for Church planting. Throughout the conference, many after Church planters and missionaries were sharing how tough it can be out in the field. How mentally, emotionally, physically and spiritually draining being in a different and sometimes hostile culture can be on you, especially when you're far away from home, family and friends. For a few moments in the conference I was actually telling God, "eh... I don't want to go le, send the person sitting next to me leh." But fortunately, by the end of day 2( or day 1 for me as the case may be), my inspiration for missions remains but the knowledge of what I need to do or prepare for has deepen greatly. I could say that I'm more determined? Not sure until the real tests arrive, but think as long as I keep faith in God, shouldn't be a problem.
Also, learned to appreciate Singapore more, which has to be God moving cause I'm so unpatriotic. So it really shows how much God can speak when you want Him to.
Anyway, school's starting soon, with possibly a whole chunk of school work to do. So it's like the nearer I get to school, the less excited for it I become. Lol. Be staying in PGP so can come visit me. And all you horrible people who say want to meet me and never plan outing one hurry go plan hor.
To end off this entry, quoting a line that I thought would serve to remind me of what I need to do. Got it from the conference but forgot who said it.
"The more you pump into your foundation, the higher you can grow to."