HIS Creation

Friday, May 27, 2005

TIME: 12:26 AM

It's been awhile with no band,suffering a little bit of withdrawal symptoms...lucky got my alto(no name yet)...

Anyway,today...did my second make up pe in 2 days,bringing my total work out sessions in 2 days to a grand total of 3...gosh im half dead already...and i still have one to clear...
Got back chinese paper today...almost fainted frm shock...got 71%!A!My teacher shocked also...say I'm weird...6 months nv touch chinese still not only maintained...but improved...what can I say...Praise God!
Too bad my oral skills suck now...got to improve in the nxt month.

Today there was this appreciation dinner thing for band and co...which I ponned...coz like not very sure of the food,although from Jack's Place.Anyway,instead of normal caregroup...today went to watch Star Wars Episode III:Revenge Of The Sith.Not bad,some parts abit too rushed...but rather good...But not my most favourite one lar...how can it be when this one the bad guys win.So cool to have a lightsaber...*Tzzoon Bzzt Brack*...*ARGH!!!*.....lol.Later end up cut off own hand...anyway detailed analysis of movie i post nxt time...going to sleep soon.

So after that went for dinner,which again for some reason i couldn't finish...i sort of miss the days in secondary school where i can devour large quantities of food and nv grow fat...too late now i think...haiz...Ok...Off to think of how some principles of Star Wars can be applied to my life...
Cya!!!

CLAO 3 days
Youth Camp 17days
Band Camp 8days

Monday, May 23, 2005

TIME: 1:52 AM

Amazed that I'm still actually awake enough to type at this time in the night...but hey this is important stuff.

Woke up early today to go amk mac for section breakfast at 8...but started at 830 coz pratically every1 was late...and so as one united section,we arrived late for band as well.Spend some time preparing stuff and giving stuff...and its off to ESPLANADE!!!!

To make a long story short,spent the entire day at esplanade as per normal concert...with lots of phototaking,full-dress rehearsals,horrible food(ok not so horrible but it aint good either),cards and fun!Sad thing is that I forgot to bring my cam...lucky most others did.Since I didn't play for combined...ended up with lots of time to slack and played bridge where I won 5 times in a row...w00t!So etc etc etc,finally it came to 630...got a rough check of attire,decided not to gel my hair,and also prayed that I will not screw up my solo.

Then 730 came and its onto the stage we go...First piece,Vesuvius...ok good not as many errors as SYF.Second piece,Phantom,ooh..got a little screwed up at some point,but not very obvious..also good.Then third piece,Hidamari...WHOA!!!!SUPER COOL!!!I GOT NATURAL VIBRATO FOR MY SOLO!!!but really dun think i played as well as i could,a little nervous,but really thank God for all the encouraging stuff other ppl said to me that helped me be less freaked out.So fourth piece,Omens Of Love,good not bad considering only 2 weeks to learn...Finally last piece,Pirates,a nice ending to the concert.Then complete the thing,continued slacking before finally being allowed to leave...din follow the band back to school coz i went to meet Martin,Calvin,Clement,Rayson and Luke.Went up to first floor and was a little mobbed by people congratulating me....lol...bhb,also received quite alot of stuff...
So anyway,kind of loiter there with the guys with them trying to tau pok me twice unsuccessfully...lol...before going to chomp chomp for supper.Finally took taxi home for sleeping time.

And thus marks the end of my public performances as part of AJ Band,really was an emotional rollercoaster ride,and truthfully,though not the best band I've been in,its one with quite alot of emotional attachment....so thanks guys for making it so for me.Always One Band One Sound!

Saturday, May 21, 2005

TIME: 10:35 PM

So tired yesterday I fell asleep with everything in my room on and running...lucky i woke up after awhile to turn it all off.
Yesterday had a short prayer meet during one of my breaks with Calvin and Bing Hong since we all didn't go for caregroup on thurs(not that I didn't want to go).So was talking about purpose and it kind of hit me that though one of the few purposes I should have for life,basically to form friendship and other kinds of relationships and being happy with everything(the other being to lead a holy life),I kind of not know what to do with my purpose in life,like...I'm not doing much to reach whatever goal I set...most friendships are formed only if I ended up to have something in common with them...like band and class and whatever...and most of the time I don't make the first move...it's the other party...and after that the whatever doesnt move very far...kind of a sad life...but hey...I'm becoming more optimistic each day...this will change and I will change it!lol.
Dissected the heart during bio pract...ended up a little insane and kind of stabbed it continuously with the pointer thingy...ok...best not go into the details.
Anyway,enough about yesterday...today is more important...not more important as in more important...erm....yeah...but don't dwell on yesterday.
Band for a change started at 10 which was good,I've been so sleep deprived lately.The pract was short and I made it even shorter by leaving early for service...too bad didn't get to play Hidamari...I'm getting nervous trying to play that solo while standing in front of approx 1600 ppl in the esplanade no less...ah well...at least if i screw up...i can always chalk it up to i was tired...
Today's service anyway...was tied in with what I just said just now,so like it was very very very very useful.Cause Calvin asked me some question that I really didn't know how to answer him...and I sort of got the answers today...just need a bit more thought and I think erm...yeah can do it.Erm...whoever who doesn't know what I'm talking about...erm...nvm.
Bought some accessories for my sax...and I'm hoping nv to buy reeds again...its so ex...but should last long...i hope...
Now if someone can just tell me how to get out of that sywo problem...i would be so much happier.

Tuesday, May 17, 2005

TIME: 11:42 PM

Just realized my rant yesterday was highly erm...violent and not exactly what I resolved to be...so censored...lol.

Nothing much happened today...School was school...nothing much to report abt...lol...so formal.Went for band,and so many ppl started to swarm over my instrument which was not protected by the rule of the QM...lol...my poor precious...

Band pract ended at 7 for me...hardly did anything...then while waiting for the rest of the J1s in my group to come for meeting,watched a horror movie on laptop in the band room,which wasnt really scary but super disgusting...picture finger sticking into head all the way in to the knuckle through a bullet hole...then observe your vomit as u puke...lol.

Then when all were present,we adjourned to amk mac for the meeting/dinner...J1s really can plan...plan until all the minor details also came out...so thorough...good job...lol...talk alot also...end up i 11 then come home...Yawnz

Monday, May 16, 2005

TIME: 11:28 PM

First I'm going to rant out my frustration...then I'll go into real bloggin.

Rant:CENSORED
Rant complete

Yeah so now that that's out of my system,so happy I got my alto sax today,so cool,leather case,orange-gold body with gold keys!Also happy I manage to somewhat do my tests today.

28 days to youth camp

Sunday, May 15, 2005

TIME: 12:26 AM

Can't believe I forgot to blog this in,I plead exhaustion....
Y-Hope Camp 2005!!!!YAY!!! my first church camp,so exciting,cant wait for it...lol

Saturday, May 14, 2005

TIME: 11:29 PM

Today woke up early...again...to go for band.Nothing really exciting happen...it's almost routine except that there was combined pract with CO which,being the slacker that I am,gave up my place to the rest of my section to play so I can slack around.Left at 1145 for service.
The ride was interesting,the driver was obviously Christian as well and he was playing a christian cd that contained some songs that I know,of course making me want to sing along.
Today's trip was super ex...coz I told him to go fastest so I won't be late,then he had to try and give up many routes before managing to navigate through a whole lot of cars and got me to the taxi stand opposite centrepoint at 1225,then I rushed(erm...walk very fast...can't run much yet)Reached just in time...Thank God!
Today is such a good day,usually during praise and worship I'm so constrained and stiff,today like really really felt God's presence and really really moved.Whee!Today's sermon was related to what I've have been thinking about sometimes recently,so I was like...listening real carefully so I can remember as much as I can and hopefully do something about it.After service,went to Starhub for lunch and in between that a mini-prayer meet led by Jon in our caregroup for the purpose of reinforcing the sermon,and now I really want to do something about it.
After lunch the rest went for meeting while I waited outside and began my long overdue revision on chem,esp since chem test is on mon.After they finished,me,martin,calvin,jun liang,luke,clement and shawn went to PS where I bought "Always and Forever" cd by the planetshakers...which I din bring home since I lent it to martin...lol.Then after a whole lot of discussion and a photo shot that din include 3/4 of my face,we took MRT to ang mo kio,where we slowly made our way to the library for muggin session.
I'm so sad that I didn't really carry out what I wanted to do coz of lack of guts...hopefully I can overcome my fear soon so this would be easier.
Anyway,considering my notes for NMR and nitro compounds were pretty much blank...took Calvin's notes and started copying so that I could do more revision...unfortunately,the library decided to close at 9 which meant I didn't finish copying the notes and will most likely fail the test on mon unless a miracle happens...(have no one to blame except myself).Shawn left halfway through the muggin session and the rest of us left at 9 since the library people figured out that the effective way of chasing us out is just to turn off the lights so we can't see...Made our way to Mac for dinner and then for home.On the way Calvin,Clement and Luke got a little crazy smearing chili sauce on Jun Liang(coz of his spiritual b'day) while me and martin got out of the way. Then left with the '136" gang(those taking 136 lar)...and started talking about star wars again....can't wait for it to come out.

Rhapsody Concert(AJ band and co combined)
22nd may 2005
7.30pm
esplanade
Tics at 15 and 20
playing:
Vesuvius
Pirates of the carribbean
Phantom of the opera
hidamari no uta(my solo!!!! :))
omens of love

this is a final attempt to get ppl to buy tics frm me...so come on ppl,come see me play that nice solo...lol.

Thursday, May 12, 2005

TIME: 10:43 PM

Argh so exhausted this week.I almost ended up sleeping through most of the lectures and always sleep in the morning,today bad until I have to drink coffee...which I haven't had a real cup of for my entire life and really a bit too bitter for my taste...but at least it kept me awake for awhile...

Didn't go for band so I can go for caregroup(If God isn't the most important thing to me then I really should rethink my whole life...)So today we had "ICE-CREAM" caregroup,which ended up with way too many tubs of ice-cream...or rather half melted cream...and too little people to eat them.

Ok think enough for today...the rest can go to my diary tomorrow and I will sleep now.
Hopefully I can wake up early so I can go school early and do quiet time there...

Monday, May 09, 2005

TIME: 10:52 PM

Today is Monday,it's a school day,so I go to school...lol.A bit insane today,which probably makes me insane everyday....whee!

I have a lot to thank God for today.Firstly,I got back my permutations and combinations test...and for the first time(pretty sure it is)in my entire 2 years of JC,I managed to get 68% pass,which is a B.WHEEEE!!!!

Then there was the last Chem SPA today which I didn't study much for due to lack of proper notes and I can't read my own handwriting(this one has to improve).Panicked like 5mins before the test so prayed to calm down.Ended up doing pretty confidently for my SPA. Another WHEE!!!!

Today...there was also band,which will continue on its everyday-schedule until after concert...and probably cause me to be sick again.But can't help it,2 weeks to perform 5 songs that should have enough quality to entertain and not torture the audience,not to mention the somewhat eccentric school admin putting college day one day before the concert,which means the band must practice for both the concert and college day,because the somewhat eccentric principal wants a different song to be played for college day from our concert repertoire.Thank God I'm not in the college day team.(Another thing I'm thankful for!)

I think possibly SYF and the continued stress of band has somehow knocked some screws of people in my band.(Includes me:))Why a boy wants a girl name and a girl wants a boy name is what I'm wondering...(hm and dj...)hahaha!Also now band has a fan club called the "ahem"fan club...or is it "THE"fan club,this one cannot elaborate...lol.
It's so fun to return to my alto days,which was erm...5 years ago?...Imagine playing baritone sax for so many years when I actually could play solos and such...but its a good experience lar.Can't say I regret it.
The only thing now is everyone wants to play alto...all want to fight with me...sobz...haha.Hopefully my own alto will come and they can fight among themselves.I've been waiting for my alto for like 5months already,and its finally coming...I think... now apparently can get a good one for 3800++ which is way below my $4500 budget,so maybe can buy a nice mouthpiece,a good set of reed and still have a bundle of moolahs for a rainy day.
Now if I can just get the name of Su Ping's crush,my day will be complete...Trying to get him to talk is probably harder than trying to hm...pull teeth?

This song is constantly playing in my head and won't stop...so maybe putting the lyrics here will help.

The prayer by Celine Dion

I pray you'll be our eyes, and watch us where we go.
And help us to be wise in times when we don't know
Let this be our prayer, when we lose our way
Lead us to the place, guide us with your grace
To a place where we'll be safe

La luce che tu hai
I pray we'll find your light
nel cuore restera
and hold it in our hearts.
a ricordarci che
When stars go out each night,
eterna stella sei

Nella mia preghiera
Let this be our prayer
quanta fede c'e
when shadows fill our day
Lead us to a place, guide us with your grace
Give us faith so we'll be safe

Sognamo un mondo senza piu violenza
un mondo di giustizia e di speranza
Ognuno dia la mano al suo vicino
Simbolo di pace, di fraternita

La forza che ci da
We ask that life be kind
e il desiderio che
and watch us from above
ognuno trovi amor
We hope each soul will find
intorno e dentro se
another soul to love

Let this be our prayer
Let this be our prayer, just like every child
Need to find a place, guide us with your grace
Give us faith so we'll be safe

E la fede che
hai acceso in noi,
sento che ci salvera

This song is half in french,but since my blog is already kinda of long,think i'll put the translation on another post....or maybe only if some1 wants it which seems unlikely since my blog seems to have little activity...lol.

Anyway,it's days like this that make me really thankful and happy to be alive and well...insane...WHHEEEE!!!!HAHAHAHAHA!!!!
Still,can't wait for thurs and sats,which are now kinda of like my favourite days!

Forgot someones birthday on the 5th of may...
So happy belated birthday Hou Teng!:)

Friday, May 06, 2005

TIME: 8:46 AM

Meant to blog yesterday but guess I was way too tired and down to do it so fell asleep on the bed halfway.

So now SYF is over and AJCSB remains a silver band.Doubt that many people will actually be truly happy with the results and some will be more sad than most(like me).We worked hard and gave our all so naturally it will tend to hurt.But let's get over it and work harder for whatever else that will come,like esplanade concert.

Really love God and my caregroup man,the only few things that can lift my spirits up when I'm down.

This post is written when I ponned school...didn't want to go.

Happy belated birthday to Clement.

Wednesday, May 04, 2005

TIME: 9:52 PM

This shall be a purely short(I hope)and band-based(Hoping again) post in view of the coming SYF.

Why I type this here instead of band blog is beyond me.
I think came a looooooooooooong way since the start of the year when what we probably would have gotten then was something lower the C.O.P assuming there was such a thing.Like the various conductors and teachers said,we improved greatly over the past few months(4 to be exact).For a band that hasn't gotten gold in its entire history...well getting gold probably will be an up-hill climb,which we pretty much made it.Conductors said we on the line of gold!!!So let's work harder a little tomorrow when we perform and nail the two songs that have most likely been haunting us even asleep(probably just for me lar).Some people think that music is purely technical stuff,just the dynamics and articulation etc.Too bad I don't agree,aside from all that there must be a certain amount of heart and soul in it,just enjoy and live in the music,making it uniquely ours with our own intepretation of the piece and getting what we want shouldn't be a problem.Remember that while we are "competiting" with other JCs tomorrow,its not a competition!Just play like we always play during practice and do it even better and everything will be fine.

I have no pleasure in any man who despises music. It is no invention of ours: it is a gift of God. I place it next to theology. Satan hates music: he knows how it drives the evil spirit out of us.~ Martin Luther

Theodore Mungers
Like everything else in nature, music is a becoming, and it becomes its full self, when its sounds and laws are used by intelligent man for the production of harmony, and so made the vehicle of emotion and thought.

Charlie Parker
Music is your own experience, your own thoughts, your wisdom. If you don't live it, it won't come out of your horn. They teach you there's a boundary line to music. But, man, there's no boundary line to art.

Just play from your heart and let music shine.For me,let it be thanks for this wonderful gift God has given me.

Monday, May 02, 2005

TIME: 10:34 PM

It's a holiday today!!!!Not!!!!
Still went back to school.Why?For band,what else....only such a short time left. I shouldn't complain(and I'm not complaining)when so many other JCs have practice as well,if we want the gold,we have to work for it no?And while we have been working hard...so are the rest of the JCs...so no,I shall not complain,I shall give my best and I shall pray that God will help me give my best.Practice wasn't bad today,came a long way from...well...COP standard,whether it's gonna be enough we'll just have to see on thurs.

So happy that I'm almost all recovered,though I lost my falsetto range....:(...ah well.
I think I'll keep it short...there's still school tomorrow...sobz.