HIS Creation

Friday, July 29, 2005

TIME: 10:16 PM

This is a really bad year for me health-wise...once again I am sick...down with a flu that apparently makes ur eyes bloodshot and according to my doc quite a few ppl down with it...what makes things worst is that ppl will blame me if they get sick...as if I delibrately want to spread my flu to them...yeah right...I really want to cause and epidemic...haiz...at least there are still some ppl who really cares...and there's always God no matter...so who cares about those ppl who try to avoid me like plague...at least I know who my real friends are...and if they get sick too bad... who asked their immune system not to be strong enough...hm...scratch them...I dun want ppl to get sick coz of me...
Wonder if my various ailments are a test of my faith...

Anyway...for some reason...I'm not in the weak student's program...wonder why... esp with my mid yr grades...and some ppl with better grades than me are in...is it because the teachers think i have the potential to do well on my own?or they have given up?hope its the former....

Tomorrow got NE party...can't wait for it...but hope I'm well enough to do something...and dun spread it around...maybe i shldnt go....haiz...some ppl really knows how to hurt others...

Sunday, July 24, 2005

TIME: 10:13 PM

Again one week since I've blogged,and what a tiring week this is.
Had drama rehearsal almost everyday of the week,absolutely draining but very very useful,especially given my not so able acting ablities.
Throughout the whole week I was practically in a zombie like state coming frm too many late nights of online chats and homework(I have valid reasons for the chats). Which probably resulted in my not so good performance in the NSW english competition...haiz...there goes my high distinction...or distinction for that matter...other than that the school week just dragged on...
Sat though was a different matter,though so much more draining than all the other days.Firstly woke up at 630 to get all my stuff ready,then rushed down to nexus audi to for last minutes stuff before service.So blah blah blah,lots of run throughs..ok 2 only...and then...GASP!!!...must put make up.Thank God it wasn't as bad as when i acted in kindergarden,that time got to put lipstick...this time no need...phew...bad thing was ppl said i look old...like some1 father...and me at the age of 18,i probably look like a grandfather when im 25...lol.So anyway, service came along at 1230,and I was backstage,trying to remember all my lines but amazingly not nervous.Oh one of my contacts came btw,one of a future many i hope.So then we acted,and acted,and kicked butt out there,the crowd was screaming for us...erm...ok not to that extent lar...but we were good not excellent like pros...but then we're not pros...so we're good.My contact din convert but its still a start anyway...a seed is planted.Then acted for second service too,and again we were good,though I stumbled on a few words this time...but overall still good...phew its over...my knee couldnt take anymore acting for awhile...thanks to susi dennis wynnie matthew martin justin and of coz me for making it a success...lol...its been fun. After each drama went back in for the altar call,which meant i sang the same worship songs twice,and the second time was so much more uplifting...speaking of which i've been feeling so deprived considering i din have much spiritual activites for quite awhile, and going twice was like so much good for me...so cool.
Anyway i rushed down for family photo after that and again i had to put makeup...2 times a day...argh....and tedious posing for the cam...as a result i actually fell asleep halfway through dinner...lcuky my head din fall onto the table...would have been so messy...lol...

Monday, July 18, 2005

TIME: 10:31 PM

Quick blog before i take some much needed rest....
Last week was probably my lowest downest weeks...Results were finalized last week...and weren't good...haiz...OOOC5A2...yucks...Got sick too...and drained lots of energy trying to keep awake at night to do work....also...all my contacts rejected me....:(
But at least there were bright points to it...I did get good workouts frm my 4 days of excercises...lol...and also service is always one of my high points of the week...there's nothing like being in the presence of God to pick ur spirits up. Also had BBQ,which as usual i din eat much...spent lots of time peacefully hearing the waves...so nice.

As bad as last week was,I have high hopes for this week, drama is getting better...i think so it shld be quite a good one by sat...hopefully.And with no tests left after todays A lvl LC(which i happen to do quite well i think...Thank God) I can spend more time trying to get new contacts or working on old ones or helping others...being that this is the last week...time to heck care everything le...and praying real hard that i get well by tomorrow...then i can do even more.

got nothing else to type frm my fuzzy brain...cya

Sunday, July 10, 2005

TIME: 9:15 PM

Wow I can't believe I'm still awake...this has got to be one of the most draining weeks in my life...
Whole week morning feel like the walking dead or something...lol.

Fri marks the first drama rehearsal...whee...so exciting...still can't believe im gonna be acting for ESS...anyway,the rehearsal...though not rehearsing....was very good...coz we did character depvelopment thingys...lol.
Sat woke up at some unearthly hour of 7 am and later found out that contacts not coming...big dissapointment...haiz... at least service as good as usual. Had lunch,had meeting, had one hour of X-men legends at X-square...then went home to prepare for my all niter at changi airport again...
This time not as effective coz probably not long after mid yrs...but still...accomplished much more than at home.went home around 12 for a bath...then rushed out again to Bugis to catch Fantastic Four...Invisible Girl poses so cool when she's using her powers...anyway...all this stuff really drained me out...needing a recharge abt now...so cya

Wednesday, July 06, 2005

TIME: 10:00 PM

For some reason I'm in a solemn mood today...you know...where you don't find things as funny as they were...probably coz of the career fair thingy...
Ah...After skipping through a few ambitious ambitions about my future...I finally landed on psychology,I think...that's my problem...I hardly know what I want...how can I actually plan for my future...and like...I'm still acting like A levels is years away...I barely knew enough to pass mid years I think...argh...this is so depressing when I look at it in perspective...can only pray that God guides me with motivation to keep muggin...coz like I'm back to slacker mode again...got to reach my target of 3As and A1 for GP...considering how few subs I take...definitely at a disadvantage when applying for Uni rite...not to mention I definitely can't get much of a scholarship and I'm definitely not rich enough to fly all the way to US for an education...imagine...approx US$10000 per year for a average publice university there...and I haven't factored in living and accomodations and books and whatever else expenses...probably reach US$30000 per year...and I have to stay there for 4 years...so thats US$120000 and not to mention air fare for hols and all that...that's gonna be definitely waaaay out of anything my mom can afford....so overseas are definitely out...which means only local Unis....which are already super hard to get in...so yeah I guess I just have to put in more effort and trust God to make my path the best path possible...
Reminded of the story of the starfish today by the MOE talk ppl...even though there are many many shores in the whole world...and millions of starfish...and one person couldnt possibly prevent all the starfish frm drying out in the sun....but all we have to do is to throw one...and we would have made a difference for that one starfish rite...so similar to evangelism...all it takes is one person sincere in serving God to make a difference...Now if i just knew what I can do...and muster up to courage to actually do so...I could be that person...wouldn't that be amazing...and if everyone does it...we can save all the "starfishes"...wouldn't that be great...Guess I'll just hav to pray hard for strength...
Anyway,probably get mid year results tomorrow...hopefully I didn't do as badly as I thought I did...at least I wouldn't panic to the extent of suffering from a stroke or something...lol...and I should probably find some time to really sit down and think of what exactly do I want to be next time...it should make choosing my course in uni easier and motivation to work to...and yeah...class tee is real nice if only there wasnt the flapping part thing at the back...lol...
Forgot to list one more b'day the last time I did...and can't believe I din do it...
To my "kor"...lol
Happy belated B'day
Charles 1st of july

Saturday, July 02, 2005

TIME: 11:24 PM

Long time since I last blogged...again...haiz...
Oh well anyway,i spent my last week of the term muggin and muggin and muggin and muggin...along with all other things...lol.

First 3 days of the week?Mid year common tests!Whoopee!~so fun!The subject i studied most for became the one i could ans the least amount of and the subject i studied least for became the one i could ans the most...lol.
On wed,after chem paper, went cheng san cc to join my fellow caregrp muggers to mug...even though my exam over..but then theres always A levels yeah?So i mugged for a total of one hour i think...then had dinner at pizza hut and ended up doing a puzzle at the cc after that...lol...2 hours to complete it somemore...talk about time wasting....anyway dun think can go back there...the guy chased us out coz we weren't members -_-
Met Calvin thurs morning for shepherding session....and slept the rest of the day....
Finally!Some resemblence of a normal caregrp session,missed it soo much....but then its still sort of like more fun than anything...not that im complaining...watched war of the worlds after that...nice but with anticlimatic ending...
Today...service!whee!God was like prompting me every single minute throughout the whole service...kind of makes me feel pressurized but then,its a challenge and I DO trust in God after all.Got a YJ convert named Bob.Celebrated Jon Tays bday with a whole lot of hello pandas and one study bible for him...lol.went for my first district meeting...whee.Had dinner at BK...where we went crazy eating star potatoes at 20cents per pack.Then went to Edwin's house to visit him since he was sick.Then left home...

I really should blog more often...everytime i dun blog for a long time my nxt blog seems so summarized and boring....haiz....oh well i still have my diary after all :P

Happy birthday to:
Debbie(28 June)
Jon Tay(2 july)