Tuesday, February 27, 2007
TIME: 12:20 AM
I think I'm gonna be down with a flu soon, the way I keep sneezing and coughing.
Went to WAM vision night today. My first. It's really a undescribable thing. Not that we did anything special. But to see so many people gifted with talents by God really using it to serve Him. Wow. Haha.
I've seen the schedule for parades for the month of march. I can only say one thing... Time for me to go heaven liao... For every weekday all the way until 23rd of march I'm either gonna be at a parade reh or a parade. God please let me take off on my birthday so I can rest after the ordeal. Please please please.
Thursday, February 22, 2007
TIME: 10:31 PM
Jesus take the wheel. Take it from my hands, 'cause I can't do this on my own. I'm letting go(of me), so give me more chance. Save me from this road I'm on. Jesus please take the wheel.
Still not entirely sure why I've so down the past few weeks and still a little down now. But I at least know the overall reason. I've been relying too much on myself. Again. Still, I must thank God that He sent people to show this to me. Not only to show that I've been relying on myself, but to show that I'm ultimately human. Flawed and carnal. Prone to repeating mistakes, to exhaustion, to spiritual dryness. If I weren't prone to any of this either I'm a machine or I'm God. But then even machines break down at some point. And God too knows the value of a sabbath and rested on the 7th day. There are still more areas in my life that has yet to be accounted for. But I'm on the mend. Thank you Father for staying with me. And thank you Alvin for showing me some parts of what's wrong with me through our sharing.
Well CNY is over, no more visiting people, no more extravagant eats. I'm happy and sad at the same time(split personality again). But at least I can stop eatting alot. Got quite a bit of ang bao money this year. Missed the 4 digit mark by a bit. Oh well. Not motivated by money this year anyway. More towards bridging gaps between people. Think I did quite well in that aspect. Hope to do better as the year goes on. And if anyone wants me to treat because of my ang bao money. Don't bother unless there's a good reason, like I owe you something or it's your birthday and you're close to me or whatever. I hope to keep this money and buy me a better laptop next year for uni. Lol.
My shepherd and SB both in Thailand now. Hope they learn lots and buy lots so I can leech. Lol.
Thanks God.
Saturday, February 17, 2007
TIME: 11:44 AM
This week has not been the best of weeks for me. For one thing I've been feeling very down. So much that I actually almost blew up at my spiritual buddy, which is something I've never done to him before and a very long time since my last one. My thinking is that all the various stuff I've going on is putting a strain on my. But I'm not so sure, since I've yet to find time to reflect on it. Avoiding it for some reason that is beyond me. But I've already placed wed night free to do it. Just hope I don't push it back any further. Cause I just can't focus on anything right about now. And I don't want to lose any friends because I'm in a bad mood. By faith, I'm gonna get this fixed on wed.
Mon- Watched 3 movies during my working hours(Question: Am I really serving NS?). Saw Saw3, step up and borat. Saw3 was a OMG film. The close up on all that gore really made me lose my appetite. And the tortures they put those people through convinced me that the producers must have been a very sick sadistic bunch of people. Had to watch step up to erase the memories of that movie before I could even eat anything. Wanted to watch Borat but fell asleep halfway, maybe I'm not mature enough to fully comprehend the movie.Had supper with Alvin at Prata House, then at jalan kayu eat tau hui. After that walked from Rivervale Plaza to my house( People who actually know me may gasp now). Spent the whole time talking. Really luv my spiritual buddy, so understanding and encouraging. I felt better after talking to him. But feel so guilty I blew up. Yet again, he's understanding. heh. Spent QT at my house, in which I almost fell alseep since it was like 2 and I'm not my youthful self anymore. But I pulled through, God told me stuff, not gonna put it here. Fell asleep like about 3am?
Tue - ASLC reh. Ack. The RSM very on leh, do the rehearsals almost back to back. Almost killed me too. Went Chinatown with my mom. Found lots of those taiwan muai chee thingys.
Wed - ASLC parade. Nothing special. Felt quite lonely at night since it was V'day and I hear plans left and right from like everyone. Not just those with girlfriends of course. But many people have like gatherings. Unfortunately, the 2 budding plans I had both fell through coz of the other parties having more pressing committments. Can't fault them, shan't name them. I spent my night watching AI and Heroes.
Thurs - Played for a funeral. I never want to do it again. I don't think I can stand the sorrow that hangs over that place. Went to fix my phone too. won't come back till the 25th. Argh!
Fri - Last day of work before long break. Yay. Watched the trainees have their graduation ceremony. Put up an amusing rendition of She Bangs. Half Day! But not before the new Band B personnel came in. Yay! I got my tenor sax junior, who's actually older than me. But yet I'm more senior. Weird. Then rush to service. Pastor Jeff preached today, a refreshing change. Not that Shirley wasn't doing well, but haven't seen Pastor Jeff preach for a long time.
After reading through this post. It has occured to me that either I'm having split personalities or I'm so good at masking my emotions that I might actually become hypocritical. I need to do something fast.
Saturday, February 10, 2007
TIME: 12:07 AM
Yay! D&D is over! No more blisters on my feet.
The whole thing was IMO a big giantic success. Which should be obvious considering the large amount of time put in by the organising committee and the endless hours of practice put in by the various performing groups.
Reached Chevrons at 315 to help set up the whole place. It wasn't the big ballroom that I expected. But it was elegant in its own way. Especially when the decor ppl put up the masks etc. Wait a loooooong time for rehearsals to start and we barely had enough time to do a full run through of the dance, which naturally increased my nervousness.
Rushed to get changed into my nice 145 bucks pants and 80 bucks shirt. Looked a little too metro... but oh well. Mingled a little before we were finally let in to sit. Food was good, photo taking was good. Became quite cam-happy today. Took a huge number of photos. Enjoyed watching the various videos of the overseas trip last year. But very sad that I didn't win that PSP. Training Wing took the first performance, a little too soft to be heard. But it was relatively interesting. A cappella is not an easy thing to do. Band A came next. Senior Boon Poh can sing! wow! and the other(whose name I've forgotten) can join singapore idol already. Luv the tone of his voice. Band B came after that. Their recorder choir was nice to begin with when I heard it during the vetting. But with the keyboard. OMG! ultimate emotion tugs. Band C next, and if you have a superstar, I don't think you'll send anyone else. So Hong Junyang sang 2 songs. Most of which I didn't hear since I was dressing up. But what I did hear, wow. Amazing voice, and high too. Finally the moment we've all been waiting for. The finale dance. Was super nervous and uber paranoid about making mistakes. But thank God for the courage to see it through. The whole dance was electric and received a standing ovation after. Lt Aik Kee said the bosses were all very impressed by the dance(more offs!) The best part is, people were impressed with me. Haha( Observe head swelling). Yep so overall, wonderful job. Thanks to everyone in band B for making this happen. We rox.
Anyway, here's some of the photos I've taken today.
Management and assorted people :)
Me and Hong Junyang
Well I was going to put more, but its like 1 am now and I still have BTT tomorrow. So if you're interested. Go look at my friendster profile. I'll upload more there. cya