Friday, March 31, 2006
TIME: 12:20 AM
Ah... Almost two weeks in SAF band already. And I like it. haha. Oh definitely there are other vocations that are slacker... but I'm perfectly fine with this one.
Finally managed to finish my applications to uni...not a moment too soon... Hopefully can get what I want and be very happy instead of getting second choice and be just happy.
Went out with Derrick,Chun yang and hak liang today... so long never done that already, it was nice to just catch up with old friends and go watch nice and funny movie like Ice Age 2... haha. Chun yang still has cheeks that have "pinch me" on it...haha.
Sunday, March 19, 2006
TIME: 10:58 PM
One more day and I go on to SAF band...yay!
Not much to pack...just some clothes and reeds...
I'm struck by the time I can have,time I can use to serve God...
Speak God I listen
Saturday, March 18, 2006
TIME: 10:39 PM
I'm in SAF band now. So happy. No need to go field camp.
This is really a case of me being blessed.
Me being Pes B.
Me pass IPPT.
Me fit for SISPEC/OCS
only 26 ppl chosen
band is supposedly for combat unfit ppl.
And yet me the combat fit person got a place there!! Really have to thank God for this blessing and really desire to make full use of this opportunity of extra freedom advance the kingdom of God! There definitely has to be a reason for me to be placed there,and I'm definitely gonna do something about it.
In more selfish sense... I got the slackest job in my section...haha... and I know quite a few ppl going there too...haha...yeah... let's go together...
gotta go start my personal statements for nus and smu application....bye
Tuesday, March 14, 2006
TIME: 10:14 PM
What would you do if you see someone about to step down the same path(which happens to be a slide) you almost took in the past? How do you save such a person dear to you from taking a step into darkness that you are familiar with? I mean like... it should be easy right? you know how going through with it will end up since you've been in that situation, you know the circumstances(well at least some of it) you can warn the person right? Ok it's not that easy,for one thing that person isn't you anymore,different personalities,different situations, basically different case. I can seek to tell him...but how can I?It's hard enough for me to open to someone who'd listen,much less a person who won't. But while I know it's hard for me,I can just imagine what that person is facing now,the possiblity of backsliding and so forth...and I'm wondering, is it really so hard for me to get over my stupid fears and go and at least give him some idea of what the heck his doing? I mean come on... this is a person I care for... and yeah I could just go on for hours about this... I really can't do this to a screen now...I think I just have to find some time or whatever to talk... but hey if you believe you're the guy that I'm talking about(it should be pretty obvious to you) Please please please think about it... what could be more important than God? Just think of the blessings you have had compare to a situation...which one looks bigger...and if you say situation...then please just tell me so I don't have to try anymore...
But on to happier things before I get another head/heart ache... Yeah band audition was somewhat a confusion...dunno whether i will get in or not...more like a 50 50 chance...
I just cant decide about what course to take but i suppose I will just pray about it,pick whats best,and pray more and hope for the best.
God please let me be able to bring every single one of my contacts and let them have a personal relationship with you so i can go to army camp with no worries over them...
Someone please remind me that Shirley has already helped to pray for me to have the gift of faith and that I should really learn to understand and excercise this gift?
Ok by rights supposed to be happy stuff...but somehow with that whole other problem( I dun even know why its a problem...save that its happening to someone i care about and he doesnt know i know and so on and so for) yeah it gets a bit sad... oh well...
Wednesday, March 08, 2006
TIME: 12:48 AM
POP LO!!!
Today marks the final and absolute end to my life as a lower than maggot recruit and and new beginning in the I-dunno-where-yet vocation.
Despite everything that's been said and done throughout the past 13 weeks at Tekong. Seriously I do sort of miss the times there, simply because it had become a part of my life, and we all know how much I dun wan to change things in my life.
Amazingly though, I didn't cry today, so chalk one up for a bit of maturity in me...haha. Really had lot of fun taking pictures and seeing ppl throwing caps all around and laughing and not half-left-downing and so on. Also had my first heart to heart talk with my shepherd which is something nice of course.
Like I said, no idea where I will be posted to, each possible place has its pros and cons and a certain degree of me wanting to go there... but I'm not gonna worry about it. Firstly cause there's no point, and secondly cause I know that God wouldn't ever place me a situation where I'll be in over my head... so I'm leaving wherever I'm posted to up to God, do the best for whatever interview I have, and then do my best at whatever unit.
MDC audition tomorrow, I need my sleep. Night.
POP LO!!!
Sunday, March 05, 2006
TIME: 9:32 AM
2 more days to pop doo dah doo dah
2 more days to pop oh pop
no more soc no more ippt
2 more days to pop oh doo dah day!
2 more days to POP. 2 more days before i can finally say good bye to Mohawk company and their extra PT. 2 more days to block leave. And 2 weeks more to a new life somewhere else in SAF. I still have that same old prob of hoping for vocation....slack or garang... SISPEC/OCS or places like MP and SAF band... slack places prevents excessive harm to my body... but garang places gives me more influence... still have no idea... oh well wait for FFI to be over and let God place me where I can be used best...
My problem is that I just dun rely on God as much as I should. I always look to my own strength(therefore flawed) first. It's very easy to just forget about God's strength especially when you're tired and just want to drop out. I just finish the 24 km march,and for the first 8km, it was torture and i wanted to drop out. But then I prayed to God,to ask Him to be with me to complete the whole thing so I don't have to do the re-24. Even then,when I was tired, it was hard and very tempting to just drop out. But somehow I managed to focus on praying throughout the march and praise God! I completed my 24 km.
Going through that makes me wonder what would have happen if I just relied on God at the start of the route march, sure I would still be just as tired,but would i have been more enthu? would i be more able to show that as a Christian with God by my side not only can I complete everything,but I can do it well and show it to others? and alot of other would i-s? and i think the answer would be yes...so wherever God places me in the nxt 2years,I'm going to use this blog as a reminder and be a light to the world. God I want You to use me!
A level results released on wed. I got BBB and B3 for GP(it can be called 3bb3). No As for me,but I still thank God alot for this results. For one thing I definitely can go NUS and even get the course that i want. For another, has any1 seen my prelim results? The one with DEO and C6 for GP? So getting BBB is actually quite a quantum leap of improvement from prelims and its something that i am really thankful for.
Getting ready to book back in so I can go CG later. See ya!