HIS Creation

Tuesday, June 28, 2005

TIME: 8:30 PM

Your Birthdate: March 27

Your birth on the 27th day of the month (9 energy) adds a tone of selflessness and humanitarianism to your life path.

Certainly, you are one who can work very well with people, but at the same time you need a good bit of time to be by yourself to rest and meditate.

There is a very humanistic and philanthropic approach in most of things that you do.

This birthday helps you be broadminded, tolerant, generous and very cooperative.

You are the type of person who uses persuasion rather than force to achieve your ends.

You tend to be very sensitive to others' needs and feelings, and you able to give much in the way of friendship without expecting a lot in return.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

How true this is....lol....

Saturday, June 25, 2005

TIME: 10:18 PM

Whew the words are swimming abt even as I typed...so tired I am,haven't slept since 10 am yesterday...
So anyway,yesterday had NE training class,followed by prayer meet,the went home to get ready for the overnite mugging session at Changi Airport.
By 845 left the house to reach serangoon,met Clement Rayson Peter DingQuan GuoFeng and took 53 to airport,where we met up with Sunny Matthias Jon and Cal,then after having dinner at BK went to the 24 hr Mac at Terminal 2.Then the hardcore mugging begin....I studied frm 1145appox until 530 in the morning...and completed 2 bio chapters 2 maths chapters and 2 chem chapters...feel so accomplished...lol.One of the few who didn't slp at all...the rest all look half dead...lol.So anyway,hardcore muggin over then went to RC for quick short naps,which i didn't use anyway...then went for service....after service then lunch etc etc etc....
yeah ok i think i shall revise this blog with more details....I'm barely alive now...yeah....anyway just wan to say...airport SUPER nice to study....must go there for prelims revision...lol.

Wednesday, June 22, 2005

TIME: 11:50 PM

Short blog today....
Nothing much today,stayed at home mostly,aside frm a trip to the hospital to pick my mom.

Tomorrow gonna have a soccer game/muggin session instead of normal caregrp...i have no probs with the muggin...in fact i welcome the muggin...its the soccer im not so sure abt...talked to alot of ppl,and they all say,sometimes we need to change our character when the need arise...now im not against the idea of change...but im wondering if this is going tooo fast for a change,i used to hate soccer,actually still hate it....i fear it in fact,i dun really like the violence it tends to bring out in ppl,sure other sports are violent too,but considering how soccer is infinitely more popular than most others...it does tend to bring out the worst kind of violence...and er....ok nvm...i could go on ranting abt why i hate soccer for a long time...but me hating it is not the point,the point now is for me to change to like it...or at least tolerate it enough to be able to play without cringing...so now the question is...can i change and do i want to.
Theres no doubt that soccer is a big and favorite pastime for almost everyone,so if i dun get into it...there will always be a barrier that would seperate me frm them...and this aint exactly good for relationship building thing...so thats a point to change...but then...considering how apprehensive i am to soccer, would changing be sort of denying my ownself for the sake of others?Wouldn't that be akin to lying?To myself?
Cal quoted that"the only constant in this world is change"sometimes we do have to change,hard to but it will be for the better.Very logical...my mind agrees....too bad my heart doesn't...
Maybe its too soon maybe i need more time,or maybe a miracle will happen and i suddenly miraculously like soccer...but I guess theres no point avoiding tomorrow...just gonna have to trust that God will guide me to whatever path thats best for me...whether it be continuing with my dislike for soccer or a change to accepting and liking soccer.

TIME: 12:57 AM

Finally me feeling better,though fried chicken probably wasn't the best thing to eat when u just recovered...

Woke up today early,and managed to get to amk library on time...unfortunately,no one was there yet,so went to the cafe and read Pride and Prejudice...which I still dun get half of it...anyway cal came at around 1030,so had a little talk abt something that has been confusing me for quite awhile...anyway,i really agree to what he said,too bad my heart needs a bit more time to adjust...

So spend the whole day at amk library...the cafe ppl must love me considering how much I spent there,managed to get quite alot of work done too...though GP still remains untouched...Along the way Jon joined and Raysong joined and Clement Join and Cal left and Martin joined then Sunny joined and Jun Liang joined...so lots of company for me during study...nice!
So anyway we chionged until 6 plus...then went to Rayson's house where we watched the Youth Camp videos,some stuff after awhile gets less funny and entertaining rite?Those videos arent some stuff,some parts each time u watch u laugh more and more...lol.Then ordered fried chicken while we watched...Finally Jun Liang left and Clement left and Jon and Peter left for airport to do overnite muggin....and the 3 of us remaining decided to try out some games,first we tried pikachu volley...boring...then naruto...dun understand...then sonic...fun...then pokemon fire red hilarious...since no one will probably read by blog be4 tomorrows event...think i can post it here...named Ash as Jon...Gary as Gideon...and charmander as peter,rattata as matthias pidgey as luke etc etc etc...me as pikachu btw:P...so its so cool...and lame at the same time...if u dunno what im talking abt...nvm...just know that it was lame...lol.

gtg
cya

Monday, June 20, 2005

TIME: 10:05 PM

Still sick....still very very sick...and it turns out that about half the caregrp is sick...work of the devil I dun doubt.Ah well,no worries guys,I'll pray for everyone...lol.

woke up at 930 today...and realized that for one of the few times in my life...I'm late for a meeting with ppl...haiz...so anyway...cleaned up and rush down in a taxi to amk library to meet Clement for mugging session.So anyway,got there around 1130,and started to mug integration...which till now i still dun get half the stuff...preparing to fail...haiz....so anyway,turns out Cal and Jon Tay were there too,so after they finished their stuff and I borrowed some books(Pride and Prejudice,shall be my challenge to read)We ate lunch and left for WFL.
The last WFL for this period,which was a rather bad time,considering how bad I was feeling,but nevertheless,Gideon managed to crack enough lame jokes in the teaching to keep me attentive,so I learnt alot.Now its just the application process...which I will do and not try,as soon as i get some contacts...haiz....
So anyway,during dinner,I've also decided to learn guitar,which means I have to buy,and after buying my sax and having to repay the school since I'm not offically kicked out of SYWO(HOORAY!!!),wun exactly be a quick reality...haiz...any kind souls want to buy for me?

Saturday, June 18, 2005

TIME: 11:03 PM

Argh...I'm sick horribly again...why am I so prone to illnesses this year?
Today during service Shirley covered Dare 4 coz it wasn't covered in camp...but I'm abit too tired to type what it was about so nxt time...
At least its nice to know that my caregroup got such caring and loving people...lol...take such good care of me.
Oh well...ARGH!!!WHY AM I SICK!!!

Friday, June 17, 2005

TIME: 11:31 PM

Ok this makes it another week with no bloggin..but then there was camp..so I should be excused. This is my first church youth camp and I can say this right now...it was the mostest bestest camp I've ever been to,really have to thank God for it.

Mon--Basically loitered around at home and went out to get my hair cut and bought some stuff before going to Rayson's house at 10pm for overnite.When I reached there...JunLiang kindly informed me that I wasn't gonna have enough time to buy anything for appreciation nite,so basically panicked alittle before Martin lent me some scrap cardboard which I could use to make cards using my juvenile drawing skills. Had a late dinner/supper at the nearby coffeeshop which happened to have KFC as well...weird...lol.Basically slept or rather tried to slp at 12...but the floor was a little hard seeing that I had no slping bag so i entered my half sleep state while being consciously aware of most things happening around me.

Tue--WHEE!!!OFF TO CAMP!!!woke up around 7,finished up the cards,and did some prayers before Martin left for getting his MC and Gerrad came.Then after that we packed up everything and left around 8 i think.Went to 7-11 to buy the rest of the components of my gifts,then took train to hougang where we were suppposed to meet the rest of the guys..who ended up rather late,but hey,we're still early...no harm done..had breakfast at the businterchange coffeeshop then got ready to take 151 to NUS.The bus ride was super dooper looong...like went potong pasir bedemeer before going to HCI then clementi to NUS...about 1hour long,so the more slp deprived bros went to slp while i finished up Nicholas Sparks"The Wedding"(not as nice as a walk to remember). Finally reached NUS and we,being the JC guys walked instead of busride to Kent Ridge Hall.Although we were early by half an hour,the whole lobby was flooded with people ,some chatting some working,already could feel the energy.So basically registered and got all our stuff,the white wristband,the black bottle,our roomkeys,the camp capsule/tag and the camp booklet(currently being treasured as Jon Tay said he spent a long time making it:)).But since we can't get to our rooms yet,we sort of loitered around the lobby until they called us to get into the hall where we split up into our various grps.Me,martin,kok leng and later on nicholas belong to the dark empire side--Arcona grp,with Calvin as our team leader,seriously a lack of boys in our grp though..aside frm us...the rest were all girls.After a bit of briefing and learning some cheers,we had games,one of which involved eating mealworms...yuck...lucky i got onion instead...but coz of a bit of a technical problem...we ended up playing against our own side...lol.So after we had a rest and a visit to our dorm rooms,mine being closest to the toilet :),the dorms are like super cool lor,nice bed,good ventilation,enough light,lots of storage space...I dun mind staying in dorms if i ever got into NUS.Then it was dinner,which wasnt like the usual camp food,very nice.After that we had the opening ceremony...which unfortunately...i cant really remember the details...so i'll fill this in later.Then we had prayer meet and praise and worship,I've really gotten into feeling God's presence during these 2 things,it's like so cool!
Following that it was Dare 1(The first sermon)by Shirley,"The Call For The End Time Generation",i don't know if it was the camp atomosphere or really God speaking to me,but alot of what Shirley said really struck me,and I almost wanted to shout out "YES THAT'S IT!"but constrain myself to the more subdued "Amen".After a short break,we went on to Dare 3,"Preparations for End Time Revival",which I think was preached by Eelee,but I can't remember...really got to write who preached what next time.So anyway,it was about repentance and I gave alot of thought to it and seriously repented alot of my sins(except for fear which would come later).Then after that it was altar call,and I responded like so many others,feeling God's presence fall over the entire hall,the feeling was kind of overwhelming,I got choked up and my eyes got watery,some other really cried,the atomosphere then was something that can't really be described...have to be there to feel it.We had a break to sort of catch our breaths and all before the start of the nxt activity..."Madness Nite".Starting with Gideon coming out as PCK,complete with mole and yellow(well....orange boots).Utterly hilarious!Then some of the the other leaders came out as the erm...''back side boys"with Larger Than Life complete with moves that were well...funny.And then, we had a"couple" performing Come What May,which was definitely gonna stir up some gossip,and Jon Tay and Gideon came out on stage after that with some really really lame moves...lol.Watched some videos that were produced by Y-Hope,"moments of tragic"(moments of magic)mtv...lol...super funny.Then came appreciation nite,in which Jon Tay got taupok by our carergrp,I din do it coz i firmly believed in do unto others what u want others to do onto u...so din do it.Then we sang the nice modified campfire song of "I ask my love" to Jon Tay and Ruizhen and the Madagascar song for Debbie,gave the cards and gifts to Jon Tay,Debbie(who really liked my border on the card)and Calvin.then went to bed at 1205.

Wed--After being called awake by Calvin 2 times,I got up at 7 and dragged my sleepy self to the toilet to freshen up and brush my teeth.Awake by the time i got to my room,i heard lots of other caregrps already beginning their respective Quiet Time.It was a very nice feeling so hear so many ppl singing to God,praying and all,completely unlike what we have at home.So at 730,my caregrp did our own quiet time,in which i finally came to terms with fear of rejection and fear in general being a sin and a temptation that i have to get rid of.Went for breakfast and then for prayer meet and a short praise and worship since there would be the JUMP concert later.As it was raining outside,we all gathered to pray for the rain to stop so that the games could be carried on later.Then it was sermon time again,Dare 2(Charateristics Of The End Time Generation),by Shirley again.
Following that,we gathered into our various groups and got onto a bus to West Coast for more games,basically consisting of a obstacle race...which my Team lost but my side won,really,what can you expect when the other team has less people?..Nevertheless it was still fun,though i tired myself up sprinting to the finish line.After a wait with lemon tea frm Mac and the other teams to finish,we went on the the nxt big part of the games,the War Game.Sort of like the battle between the jedi and sith,the republic and the empire of coz,we had to capture flags(consider them planets)while trying to "kill" the other side by pulling paper frm them...real fun,my side had a decoy base so we got alot of flags and I sneaked attacked and killed 5 people...whee!We almost lost coz the republic side was doing a 2 pronged attack on the bulk of our forces but luckily the gamesmaster said time out so we din lose.Got back to Kent Ridge Hall at round 430,took a quick shower of 3mins after dinner so I wouldn't be late for the nxt prayer meet,almost was though.Then Pastor Jeff preached Dare 5,"Characteristics Of the End Time Revival",and it seemed to me that the word fear kept popping out,prompting me to do something.That something happened later during Altar call.See,I always had this insane fear of practially eerything,can call me paranoid too.And this Fear was like seriously impeding alot of stuff.So during altar call,pastor jeff called for those people who were facing problems,dissapointments and the like in their spiritual life.Almost automatically I went up,which was actually the first time I actually went up,but I didn't hesitate as I normally do this time,it was as if God was prompting me to go up there.So there was this sister who prayed for me,can't really remember her name at that time,think it was Jessie or something like that.I told her how much my fear stumbled my progress and she started to pray for me.Normally during prayer the most I got was being choked up.This time though,it was as if God was speaking directly to me,through a sort of vision.Me surrounded by darkness with a light shining on me,I run into the darkness but the light always follows(explained later).It was then that i truly felt God's unfailing love for me,and the gratefulness and emotions was really alot to bear,for the first time since I converted,I cried.So after that Pastor Jeff told us to write down anything that we have felt and need to write after being touched by God,at first i didn't know what to write.Then I think it was the Holy Spirit that wrote this through me...the real version got taken away coz i wrote it on a piece of paper to be handed up and i wished i wrote it somewhere else,but the main gist is still fresh...it goes like this
"Fear not,for God is with you.However many time you sin or fail to do that of which He asks of you.He still love you,more than that love of a mother to her child,it runs deeper than the deepest valley.But He waits for the day when you can stand and say that you are not afraid,for God is with you.He waits for the day when you can say that you are strong and can resist all temptations to sin,for God will give you the strength and will to do so.He waits for the day when you can strive to fulfill the great comission and to spread His name and glory to other,friend or stranger."After i wrote this i wrote my response:
"I do not know when this day would arrive when I can truly say that I am not afraid and will never succumb to sin,but I know that God will always be with me when I ask Him for help and will always love me even if I fail.For this,I am grateful and know what I will do all it takes to do His work without being stumbled by fear,for God will always help me through."
Throughout writing this,I dunno how many times I cried,I saw alot of other people crying to.yesterday that feeling during prayer meet?I think u need to mulitply it by 10 to know how it felt this time.Well anyway,after a short break.it was concert time
J.U.M.P concert(Jesus You Must Proclaim)--the Northeast JC sisters got us a brown ribbon to tie around our hands into a rather cool tattoo like pattern...that along with my watch my white and black(limited edition) wristbands and my just accquired lightstick bangle kind of made my hand a litle heavy...lol.After getting a stamp on my hand and waiting awhile more,we finally got to go in.The atmosphere was super charged,esp since we had a rather inspiring altar call just a few mins be4.I really jumped and sang out throughout the whole concert even despite a cramp in my leg.The concert totally rox,the most current song "Always and Forever was played twice somemore.Durin the concert,we broke up into our individual schools to pray for our schools, so me,Cal and Nicholas got together and begin praying.I got choke up again as Cal fervently prayed and I could hear alot of other people doing the same thing,its another amazing feeling.The concert ended with "Always and Forever" and Gideon met the whole Northeast district to talk about evangelism and our goal:150.Then we celebrated Matthias Birthday by putting him up on a high stack of chairs in the middle of the hall and singing happy birthday in front of alot of other ppl,can tell he was touched :).Then had a sharing session in our caregrp,and heard many ppl share abt how this camp had somehow changed their spirtiual growth.I shared last coz I was so nervous abt sharing and din really know what to say.So when it was my turn,I shared abt how I felt God during the altar call when i repented on my fear and again...I choked up a few times.Lucky this not PW,or i die liao.Then Cal affirmed me and I again really really touched...After that it was officially brother's/sisters nite.Most of the caregrp ended up in a meeting while me Weiqiang and Gerrad went to Weiqiang's room for a chat and another praying session...again I choked up halfway(wonder if i can ever pray again without choking up with gratitude to God).Then Weiqiang fell asleep and me and Gerrad went to blessing point to scout out for more food...lol.The rest had finished their meeting and most of them went to play soccer,I at first wanted to go talk to Cal abt something but since he too fell asleep and i went back to my room to read up and reflect on some stuff.Went to slp at 5.

Thurs--last day of camp,a bit sad...no more waking up to hearing ppl worshipping God already.We were seriously behind schedule coz lots of ppl woke up late and so had to rush thru breakfast since we obviously dun wan to rush thru Quiet Time.We had Thanksgiving after checking out and Shirley got us to commit to iMULTIPLY,basically abt goals on finishing the New Testament,getting another person to know Christ,and growing a caregrp in AJ,at first Cal said 5..but then i wrote down 10 so he followed suit...hey we got to dream big yeah?had one last Praise session with "history maker" and the closing ceremony and we were offcially dismissed frm camp.which meant one thing...lots of phototaking...which can be seen in my msn blog soon.the guys tried to taupok me but failed...again...and after that they din try coz i was actually not feeling well that day and that taupok kind of took its toil on me...they finally taupok Clement,who like me was un-taupokable.(I'm the main camp objective for taupok btw--they failed...whee!)Then we went to the best canteen in NUS,"The Deck" at the arts and social science block to eat...very nice and cheap...I don't mind going there to eat everyday if i ever got into arts and social science or law...which is nearby.Then after that me,Cal,Weiqiang and Luke took a taxi(the hougang punggol gang) home which costed us 18 bucks...ouch.I came home,fell asleep and woke up sick...lol.

Btw the empire won the games.
This camp was a very very very life changing experience for me and I can't wait to go for service tomorrow even though I'm sick.
This is one loooooonnnnnng blog,hope u didn get bored reading it...
it took me 2 hours to type this out
yeah anything else and im gonna write it out nxt time...

Happy b'day to
Matthias (15 june)
Calvin(9 June)

Friday, June 10, 2005

TIME: 12:35 AM

One week since I've last blogged...holidays are so sianz when you've to study and stuff...
Fri-sat was band camp...my last...so sad...lol... spend only 2 hours slping be4 going for service...amazed I didn't slp....lol....the new exco formed on the 4 of june at 8.00pm...whee...can step down liao.
Mon-Wed...nothing much
Wed had the FELLOWSHIP OF THE CHOCOLATE!!!!!I NEVER WANT TO EAT CHOCOLATE AGAIN!!!!
Then Martin came to my house to marinate the chicken....which took 30mins,and then we decided to slack and not do the corn and sweet potatoes so at least Calvin got something to do....lol...then after alot of internal discussion....the two of them decided to stay and watch STAR WARS EPISODE V:THE EMPIRE STRIKES BACK at the request of Calvin...except that he slept halfway thru the show...lol...Then sleep.
Thurs...woke up at 10...then go for pe at 3...before went to buy Calvin's present...then after came home to get all the bbq stuff and then go east coast.BBQ was success me thinks...whee...except for the small fact that it took abt 20 mins to get the fire going...lol.Got a piece of chocolate cake for Calvin as b'day cake and the rest of us had ice cream.Basically i only ate a satay....kind of sad but I not very hungry anyway...then got a few ppl get taupok...and then played some games then go home...yay....sleep.

Thursday, June 02, 2005

TIME: 11:30 PM

Almost one week since I last blogged.
Actually not much happened...or maybe not...erm..
Fri Be Yourself Day....BYD for short...last day of school as well..basically hid inside LT1 and watch Van Helsing for the entire time and then go for the pagent which is actually not as lame as I thought...
Sat SERVICE!!!There's nothing that i want to put here except that wow! I can't believe how much I can feel during it...
Mon...CLAO A level exam paper...ah....was so nervous in the morning...then again maybe not...anyway essay was oh so simple...lol...wrote something very similar and basically just cut and paste with some more chim words thrown in...the rest of the paper quite hard though...oh well at least I still have B3 to fall back on.
Tue...forgot I had remedial pe...ponned maths lecture...basically rotted at home playing FFX
Wed...Rotted in the morning...then went to check out food prices for next week's caregroup BBQ.
Finally today...went to school at 9 for exco meeting then go for remedial pe(which turned out to be actually quite slack---self train).Then go for caregroup,which like service gave me a lot to think about and feel.Also led my first game to which response was quite good...Whee!

So now that my week's story is somewhat summarized...gotta say this...there comes a time in life when we have to choose between 2 diff things in life...often this is one seriously and i would say freaking hard choice to make...but still have to make rite?So yeah...i made the decision...and it wasn't until today that i truly absolutely decided,when ppl asked be4 i kind of evaded the question...today it was a str8 ans...so in view of all this...im dropping SYWO for well...my Faith...Faith in God.Yeah...so now if i can convince some others and figure out how to pay back the school and prevent grounding frm my mom...