Well...today started off pretty well. Woke up pretty early and reached Burger King about 930. Had some food then began a short study session of maths until Rayson Aquila and Gerrad came...amazingly no one ate...including me...yay...temptation resisted...haha...anyway we sort of crapped for about 45 min before leaving for prayer meet. Service today covered the 7th part of God is Closer Than You Think series...and well...what can I say... its good. Very good...and no I dun mean it sarcastically. Today was about prayer. The importance and a little about the wrong emphasis we sometimes put on it. Truthfully, I haven't been praying regularly...usually I do it when there's a need or when I'm not tired...now...let me share... THAT IS NOT THE RIGHT WAY. prayer should be done regularly,daily. Not because its to ask God for help but to help us get close to God. Always we should remember this and make time for prayer each day. Sounds forced but actually I think will reach a time where this will become something that I'll look forward to everyday.

Afterwhich,had the usual lunch thingy at Starhub...I slacked there a little and when I couldn't stand erm...something...Went off to walk around centrepoint(incidentally I gave up another 3 bucks to RC fund and this weeks RC fund giving was 40 Bucks...the lesser the better though...it means I have better control) Anyway, I ended up at life bookshop and I looked around...actually wanted to buy a book but couldnt find it...so then after much consideration I ended up buying Darlene Zschech new solo album....very new released i think...and well...I'm glad I did...its a very nice album...not exactly good for praise or worship sinces the tempo is kinda middle....but very nice still...haha...and cheap too..esp with the student discount.

Anyway,I didn't get to talk the thing I needed...but nvm...studied at Starhub until around 7....by then only left Rayson and me...so we packed up and went to Le Meridien for dinner...and yeah the aussie western food there? Ultra nice...so much better than Fish and Co....please go there and try...the calamari like made up of 11 herbs and spices...haha. After which went home...and now...I'm ripping the CD...haha.

Listening now to the Darlene Zschech Album---Change the World.

Well...almost a week since i din blog...and really dun feel like saying much....tired...haha...so end up the last blog....erm...let's just say RC fund is gonna be rich in the process of me trying to change myself... In hopes of not going to blow up in front of other people's face...yeah I'm a walking time bomb...haha...And I want to learn forgiveness from my shepherd,he has mastered it well...

anyway...the whole week was sort of routine....wake up go bcc study until 930 go home... sleep... I tried changing lar...but trying to jog alone in the morning is not working...for one thing i cant even get out of bed...haha...and well...the 10 bucks and below for meal thing is not working either... spent 13 on pasta mania for dinner today....7 times in 2 weeks?I'm broke...haha...
But today was quite bad lar...dunno why my mood quite sianz today....then cannot focus of studies at all...went home to sleep then go pm...then go back bcc...did 7 maths questions before i ended up on the way to freedy's house to play... started to learn bball...but i think im better off not playing any matches until i improve coz basically i still sux....and yeah...today was a sinful day considering how little i study...gonna repent when i finish this...haha.

Well...gotta figure out ways to get out of that problem before i either go broke... or end up becoming like my old self....i'm improving... but its taking so long...ahhh....sianz

as the year draws to a close and change will come...i gotta find someway to embrace it.

Ok this is gonna be a very very short post before I collapse....details of today I shall do when I'm more awake....

just a few words to put here....change....desire....pruning....forgiveness....

Yeah more on this later...haha.

nite

Its been quite a few days since I've blogged...basically coz I have nothing much to blog...my days have fallen into a monotonous routine of waking eating muggin...sianz...haha...no lar...i never blog coz i've been coming home late frm studying...or never come home at all.
my days have been a bit screwed up frm the overnite...

mon(I think)---went bcc mugged...ended up at the 4th floor thinking...went to 3rd floor to do more thinking...(I think too much sometimes)...so anyway...poured everything out on the second floor bridge...my I do get around dun I...anyway thanks Clement...haha. After which went home for lunch...and then its off to RC for a study until the next day.( details of the pouring out session can be found in 4 places....me God Clement my diary...so dun bother finding--I'm being lame for typing this out...)

Tue---Slept at 4 woke up at 9(about 5 hours of studies...ok lar). Went eat nasi lemak with peter jon and clem....then after that went home to bathe...since i lost my shoe bag towel toothbrush and clothes on the taxi on the way to rc the night before...thats like practically 50 bucks and comfort down the drain....went bcc for another day of muggin....and erm....cant remember what happen after that...haha....

Wed---early to bcc...mug....rayson came...I ate alot today...put on 10 kg maybe...haha.left at 930...took bus with rayson which is actually quite a rare thing...and home...bloggin now...haha.

Over the past few days never go school....sorry i missed the farewell assembly on tue for mr tan...oh well...

Ok once again...this has to be short since I'm practically half asleep...
yesterday was grad day... I din cry...probably coz I was too spoiled by the maths time prac...
I also received bad news yesterday...enlisting on dec 8th...which means only one day of camp... sianz...but at least i can finish it fast lar...and i still get to get out on Christmas...

Anyway today...service was...ministering...today was on the subject of communities...and I was struck by how short a time I have left for this year...and how far away I am from the goal set earlier... I sort of had a bit of a panic...but then... God spoke to me. I will just say the main point(so that I can sleep faster) that being so long as I'm committed and I've tried my best,it will be ok...and somehow the goal will be reached...not this year perhaps...but it will be...and that's the hope that I can cling on to...In any case there's always Christmas rite?:)

After which had NE united! Which basically comprised of a rather long hot walk to SMU as well as fun games and a nice fashion show...Still enjoyed myself lar. So...anwyay...lunch....mug...CG evaluation...soccer(Man U vs Sun 3 to 1)and home.

As one of the many means I hope to use to count my blessings....here goes....
I thank God for patching up my frayed relationships with quite a few people
I thank God for giving me a bunch of bros that were there for me when I was down
I thank God for letting me have at least one day of youth camp,my prom and more than a week after A's before NS.
I thank God for my really caring bunch of teachers who all volunteered to help me with my work
I thank God for blessing me with hope that I can cling on to even in the darkest of nights.

Ok erm...short post lar...

Today was our cg's post-promo party...hm...wonder what it has got to do with me....lol. Anyway today was FUN!!!!!! Enjoyed myself...esp after the whole thing...the slacking...the lameing...the singing...lol. Oh yeah today first time I play keyboard for cg and well...basically the first time. So happy that I managed to do it.Thank God! like it was only 2 days ago that i knew i was supposed to do it...then like after go home...prayed for like 15mins for that...So really thank God for giving me the necessary skills to do it and also to lift my extremely low self esteem...

Tomorrow last day of sch le:( no more muggin at the OC no more lameness of my class...so sad...I hope i dun cry tomorrow...
God bless all!

I'm a bit exhausted so don't mind me if I end up typing illogically...lol.

Nothing much happened on Fri...I bought a new jacket that cost 95 bucks...Adidas lar..so can't expect much cheaper...lol.

Sat--- Had lunch with with Aquila and Gerrad at BK before going for service.Today Shirley talked about Discipleship.What it takes to be disciple and a disciple-maker...both of which I'm seriously lacking...still, I can always change and learn...it's entirely up to me and I do want to...haha... During CG evaluation...someone shared something...cant exactly remember who...think it was Jon... anyway... its about we constantly say things like Glorify God in our studies and all that..but sometimes that just seems to be talk...its easier said than done...but no one said that this kind of thing would be easy right?So as part of my growing up or whatever you want to call it... I am going to glorify God. In studies or whatever...and I'm going to really put a conscious effort in doing it.

After CG evaluation went RC to study. The additional fans and tables really made it a better place to study although I did spend a bit too much time playing chinese chess...After which went Clemmy's house to watch soccer,England vs Austria.

Xuan man...David Beckham sent off like almost at the start of second half...for something that he doesn't seem to have committed...referree biased...lol...anyway England won 1-0...at least I think they did...coz i fell asleep around the 85th min...haha. Stayed over anyway since it was already like... 1am in the morning.

Sun---Woke up like erm... 10....haha....tired mah... anyway went bishan,had lunch/breakfast with clement then on to bcc to mug...there like getting more and more to be another rc...at least 20 NE ppl there....lol. Its very nice to study in a place with lots of ppl that you know...though sometimes the progress is slow coz of chatting...but at least got questions can ask ppl....lol. During one of the de-stressing periods played "marvel vs capcom"(still dunno why call that with no capcom characters...) with Rayson...super ultra lame...had to run out of the room halfway coz I couldnt stop laughing....lol.(If you dunno what I'm talkin about its the game played in the Superstar variety show I believe...if still dunno nvm lar).
then later clement trashed me in chinese chess...wonder what happen to my skill...lol.
oh yeah breadtalk got promotion 1 Buck! for 1 Bun! until tomorrow only.

actually there was something i meant to reflect here...but then...i cant remember what it is at this moment so erm...haha....another day bah.

As i said in that previous post...which was created quite a few days ago...couldn't blog coz of some page error. But thank God for those nice ppl in blogspot...haha...they helped me fix it...if not them...then its God already so still thank God! haha.

So my results for prelims are finalised. D chem E Bio O maths and C5 GP. I know its not good,in fact many people who found out my results asked what in the world I was doing?What does it look like?I'm slacking lar! Lol. Just joking. Its kinda hard for me to catch up on 2 years of work and i regret slacking last year...but then...move on lar. I still have a month. its not impossible to improve by at least 4 grades...as it is I can feel my foundation improving and i refuse to believe that prelims will be easier than A levels... Moreover, I have God's grace,and as long as I do my best can le. Somehow someway He will provide. Oh yeah, must thank God for my bio grade which was actually O(fail) but then they decided to moderate it to make it a pass so yay i passed 2 subjects.

This week had 2 caregroups...is that cool or what?Haha. one yesterday and one today coz quite alot of ppl couldnt make it then the rest went and not many so like had just mini caregrp and the real one today...lol. I'm really glad that God blessed me with bros who really listen to me lar... I think that His love shines through thru our acts. For someone like me who talks gibberish for a long time before getting to the point...it takes a great deal of patience doesnt it? haha anyway thank you Rayson Jon Clement for taking precious time off studying to listen to me do a sort of rant which I believe took no less than half hour each time. Most of all, the person i must thank at this time the most would of course definitely be my shepherd calvin lar.Though I dunno whether he actually has time to read my blog but i feel the need to blog this out lar.
Thank you for all the times you've spent with me in the past few months despite your busy schedule. Thank you for that bookmark which I really did want to treasure except that it got tangled up in the wash and my mom threw it away before I could salvage it.Thank you for alot of other things which if i really think and put it here it would fill the whole page and take ages to load for readers.Haha. But most of all,what I want to thank you for is your forgiveness of my inflicting hurt on you. Not many people in my life was ever able to that and its something that I definitely have to learn. I wanted to say something very formal and learned but then...that wouldn't exactly be what I actually want to say...so better write my own... God really blessed me when He sent me this shepherd of mine that as mushy as it sounds I've come to love and respect alot. and erm... well thats the main gist lar...anything else would just be reiteration of the past which I so do not want to go into except with God. haha.

Happy birthday
Gillian(5 oct)
Miss Mani(6 oct) she probably wun see this anyway....haha.

Ok today was like wow!

So during service usually I’m somewhat reserved… especially when I’m spiritually down…which can be classified as my feelings then…Then God spoke to me through both Shirley and Pastor Jeff. The former being during worship. She came up and talked about God is there with each and everyone of us even when we’re not at our best physically spiritually and mentally(ok I’m paraphrasing the idea here)Anyway… she then sang a song that I believe was spirit-led and that really really REALLY touched my heart and I started to tear…Then later Pastor Jeff talked about how God desires to be with us more than we desire to be with Him,and that sometimes we may have a deep relationship with him but have not the wild abandon for him or vice versa and that the best kind of person that we can be is to be both,to be at least daily seeking God over the “coffee table” so to speak. And that we need the desire for God or if we dun the desire to desire for God. Again there’s a sense of rightness in what he says that I needed to hear and again I teared…so it was like…emotionally draining and refreshing at the same time…wow so profound! Lol.

After which we went to Starhub to celebrate luke’s bday and hammy’s farewell before she transfers to YWAM. Following that a meeting and CG evaluation. And then its off to SR gardens…though I sent off luke and aquila first to hougang…lol.
Watched the Man U vs Fullham match today….and MAN U won 3-2 so like finally! They’re getting back into shape…and clement was like saying that man u won coz of giggs…lol.
I missed the last bus again….but thanks to God’s grace,I found 3 strangers whom at first ask me to help take photo…then later asked if they could share cab since it was on the way. Let’s just say that they made the trip really worth it… 8 bucks cut to 2 bucks leh…lol…hope next time can share again.

So anyway,the thing that has been troubling me in and out throughout the past few weeks? I basically spilled everything out first to Rayson then to Jon then to Clement…and let’s not get into the specifics shall we? Suffice to say that most of it has been resolved except for a part of it….
I might have been hurt and all…but never should I ever have hurt you…for all that I’ve done I’m sorry Cal. Now wonder if he sees this.

This post was prolly postponed a few days since I cant get into my create post in the blog for some reason….sianx.
1 oct

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