HIS Creation

Tuesday, June 26, 2007

TIME: 10:07 PM

Whoa. So many things happened over the past week. I'm like super drained by it all. Haha.

Think due to all that late nights or no nights and various other activites, once again, and probably not the last time either, I lost my voice thanks to a pesky cough. But can't exactly say it was a bad thing... It did get me out of SAF day. haha. So yay. Thank God.

Then Peter dropped a bomb on me and Sida on thurs by saying we needed to share testimony on sat about the KL missions trip. Kinda panicked through the whole last minute work. Haha. But was really glad to share though, firstly caused that would be a sign that my voice was back. Also, it was nice to find out that I actually learnt so much, there's nothing better to find out what you learn than sharing what you learnt to others.

Following service really closely was the NS chalet. Which was like wow! 30 visitors! None from me. But it's still big. Think it was quite a big success and like really glad to know so many people. Hope to know them better and really praying for their hearts to be soften so that they can feel the love of Jesus through us. And maybe next time I can bring someone. Feeling greedy for God. Haha.

Watched 2 movies also. Shrek 3 with Alvin. It was lamingly funny. But apparently really few people can appreciate that kind of humour since most people said that it sucked. Oh well.

Watched Fantastic 4 too, not really worth the money in terms of plot. But seeing the silver surfer in action more than made up for it. Haha. Silver is so cool. But watched this movie alone because something happened, not much for sharing though, so oh well. At least it's not a repeat of dreamgirls. Hm... I'm still kinda sour about that, better stop before I become a lemon.

Thursday, June 14, 2007

TIME: 10:10 PM

Ah... back home again after yet another extended stay out of home. Haha. First Frontier Church Camp.

A lot of things happened during camp. A lot of it personal. So not going to write it here, only shepherd and sb can know. Lol.

So what other things happen? A whole lot of other things. Haha.
I'm kinda sleep deprived already so I'm just gonna do this quick.
The teachings were extremely entertaining and ministering. Not surprising considering the people doing it. Haha. Hope to see the testings in my life in the next 2 weeks so I can grow fast. :P Really want to start putting words into actions and denying myself completely.

Ah... Think forget it... I'll do the rest tomorrow with the exception to this part. Was having a 2 hour meet with God on the second night alone and God gave me this vision that really inspired me and hope this will do the same for others too.

God showed me this candle(me), the candle was made of white wax but had bits of sand and dirt(impurities) in it. Then the candle was lighted and glass bowl was placed over it. The candle was burning quite brightly, but because there were impurities in it, incomplete combustion took place instead of complete combustion and black sooty smoke was produced. The soot settled on the insides of the bowl and slowly obscured the light from being seen, till the point where the light was hidden completely. Then God took the candle and scraped out the parts with impurites, leaving the candle pitted, but this time completely white. He washed the bowl and removed the soot and relighted the candle, then placed the bowl over it once again. But this time, the candle burned completely and no soot was produced. And the flame was brighter than it was before.

Leave it to you to ponder on this for awhile, I'll write what God told me through this another time, this tired, I don't think I can finish it. Heh.
Good night.
Oh, Alvin if you read this... thanks for that really really early in the morning talk, you made me think of things that I never considered to think of, share with you what I think on our next supper trip. Hee.

Monday, June 04, 2007

TIME: 10:00 PM

Ah... Finally managed to sleep on my bed after so many days. Haha.

Part II of stay at hope PJ: My thoughts and feelings. Lol.

Seriously I did not expect myself to go for this trip. Got all sorts of excuses... Not ready, too busy, too ex(well maybe not this), and to top it all off... not doing well. But oh well, in the end still decided to go for this highly last minute trip(think 2 days before departure then finalize). And I don't regret it. This trip really helped me grow in many areas, exposed me to lots of things, help me re-think alot of things too.

Like I said, wasn't doing very well before I left. Actually felt very stagnant in growth, but then thought maybe if I go on this trip, I might actually find a way past this. So following Holy Spirit prompting decided to try and take leave at the last min( think 3 days before leaving). Though I haven't even left yet I had already grown in faith(though I didn't know it at that time), really had to pray for God's intervention in the leave-taking, which wasn't easy coz of some miscommunication. But in the end, got it. Praise God.

Then the trip to PJ was interesting too. We decided to take 170 to JB and get a coach there instead of the usual take coach all the way. Quite taxing. I ended up praying silently that nothing will happen to us. And really thanked God when we reached safely. Met Joseph, Ngee Sun and Ben for the first time. Really nice people. I'm digressing to event sharing... oh well do that first.

First day- The 3 of them brought the 5 of us to have breakfast, prata. Really good prata. Napped at the brother's ministry house and then went to Pastor Simon Eng's house for the start of their youth camp. Had fun praise session in english and malay. Haha. Then aunty Lai Eng taught us 6 lessons in vision and philosophy(it's like a crash course). Had muffins and home baked waffles. Then went to the church to watch the "one Life" sermon again and Jiehui talked... not going to share what he talk about now, but as much as what he said was for the PJ youth. It affected me just as much. Had nasi lemak for dinner, got breakthrough in eating chili. Haha.

Second day- Left 4 of us since Jiehui gotta go back. Pastor Simon Eng taught us the last 3 lessons of Vand P(Like I said, crash course) after a rather taxing praise session(next time we really should bring someone who knows multimedia). Had chicken rice(very different from singapore's one) for lunch and Ngee Sun taught us about prayer. Then watched a video about Rena Maria, a girl who was born with no arms and half a left leg. A girl who did not succumb to despair despite her disabilities and relying on God, she became a champion swimmer, singer and a self sufficient person. Had pizza for dinner(got it within 30 mins or would have had a free pizza), and then had roti hawaiian(roti chanai with meat and pineapples and cheese in it) and ribena special(ribena with shaved ice, watermelon, rambutan and nata de coco) for supper. Very nice and very fattening. Argh. Haha.

Third and last day- Lead a game(marvel vs dc) and had an interesting praise(didnt use and instruements but our voices). Dental care lesson(Lots of things to learn there) and Joseph taught about The Bible. Went to a nearby chinese(?) restaurant for lunch. Then back. Nick taught first about why we evax, and I taught next. Almost turned to jelly, haha, very nervous coz it was my first time teaching in front of so many people. Then went for street E. Wasn't really fruitful coz of the location, but its a learning experience. Said cheery goodbyes and then rushed to a mall for vietnam food(dinner) and managed to shop for pants for Alvin(sorry but the rest didnt ask) in 10 mins, then rushed to the bus terminal, got some dunkin doughnuts and boarded, almost late. Then home.

Whee, hard to sum up 3 whole fulfilling days in so short a time.
Like I said I really felt that I grew in many areas, especially in faith. This trip had alot of firsts for me, first missions, first group teaching etc etc etc. And I really had to rely on something else apart from my otherwise cowardly self, therefore I just had to rely on God, and through that I saw His great strength, His unfailing strength. Also, every teaching, every video, just hit me in the head the way i wanted it to, to realized how God blessed me, why God wanted to bless me and what does God want to do in my life. Just look at Rena Maria, she lacks what most people have, yet she has more than what alot of people have. She has joy and peace, and can do more than what other people who have no disablities can do. God used her lack to show others His great power and blessed her with courage to get through her life, joy to enjoy it and peace to live through it. If she is blessed, how much more are we who have everything we need in life blessed? Looking at the situation in PJ, I see alot of constraints that we don't face here, we have no traffic constraints, we can practice our faith freely and the youth here is already well established. There I saw exactly how tough pioneering is, how much more taxing church planting might be. Yet so many people have done it through reliance on God. How much more could I do if I relied more. Even the lessons on the foundations of faith helped me although I already know what they were, they firmed my foundation and slapped me out of my daydreams and back to the reality of my spiritual growth. I felt God's presence throughout the whole trip and learnt so much. I just hope I won't forget it like I had before.
Thank You God for this trip, everything in it. Jiehui, Peter, Nick and Sida for being with me and helping me through my roles. The leaders over at PJ, Joseph, Ngee Sun, Ben, Lai peng, Ah Liang, Albert for making us feel welcome and going out of your ways to bring us around. Thanks for your sacrificial spirit. And finally the youth, Rachel, Shannen, Wen Li, Yoke Ching, Poh Ee, Derrick for giving us a chance to go there and blessing us as we hope to have blessed you. Thank God also for all these new friendships.

Sunday, June 03, 2007

TIME: 5:20 AM

Whee. Just got home from Hope PJ. A very fulfilling trip.

Some highlights. We basically rushed here and there the whole trip. Haha. Had lots of good food from the mamaks(I think it's spelt this way), with lots of interesting stuff like roti hawaiian, ribena special and roti prata that's not drenched in oil but oh so good. Lessons on vision and philosophy by Pastor Simon Eng and his wife, aunty Lai Eng. Dunkin Donuts. New ways of travelling to Malaysia I never knew and new friends.

This trip was really spirit filled. unfortunately i need to go to camp now so I'll update this tomorrow. cya.