Saturday, February 17, 2007
TIME: 11:44 AM
This week has not been the best of weeks for me. For one thing I've been feeling very down. So much that I actually almost blew up at my spiritual buddy, which is something I've never done to him before and a very long time since my last one. My thinking is that all the various stuff I've going on is putting a strain on my. But I'm not so sure, since I've yet to find time to reflect on it. Avoiding it for some reason that is beyond me. But I've already placed wed night free to do it. Just hope I don't push it back any further. Cause I just can't focus on anything right about now. And I don't want to lose any friends because I'm in a bad mood. By faith, I'm gonna get this fixed on wed.
Mon- Watched 3 movies during my working hours(Question: Am I really serving NS?). Saw Saw3, step up and borat. Saw3 was a OMG film. The close up on all that gore really made me lose my appetite. And the tortures they put those people through convinced me that the producers must have been a very sick sadistic bunch of people. Had to watch step up to erase the memories of that movie before I could even eat anything. Wanted to watch Borat but fell asleep halfway, maybe I'm not mature enough to fully comprehend the movie.Had supper with Alvin at Prata House, then at jalan kayu eat tau hui. After that walked from Rivervale Plaza to my house( People who actually know me may gasp now). Spent the whole time talking. Really luv my spiritual buddy, so understanding and encouraging. I felt better after talking to him. But feel so guilty I blew up. Yet again, he's understanding. heh. Spent QT at my house, in which I almost fell alseep since it was like 2 and I'm not my youthful self anymore. But I pulled through, God told me stuff, not gonna put it here. Fell asleep like about 3am?
Tue - ASLC reh. Ack. The RSM very on leh, do the rehearsals almost back to back. Almost killed me too. Went Chinatown with my mom. Found lots of those taiwan muai chee thingys.
Wed - ASLC parade. Nothing special. Felt quite lonely at night since it was V'day and I hear plans left and right from like everyone. Not just those with girlfriends of course. But many people have like gatherings. Unfortunately, the 2 budding plans I had both fell through coz of the other parties having more pressing committments. Can't fault them, shan't name them. I spent my night watching AI and Heroes.
Thurs - Played for a funeral. I never want to do it again. I don't think I can stand the sorrow that hangs over that place. Went to fix my phone too. won't come back till the 25th. Argh!
Fri - Last day of work before long break. Yay. Watched the trainees have their graduation ceremony. Put up an amusing rendition of She Bangs. Half Day! But not before the new Band B personnel came in. Yay! I got my tenor sax junior, who's actually older than me. But yet I'm more senior. Weird. Then rush to service. Pastor Jeff preached today, a refreshing change. Not that Shirley wasn't doing well, but haven't seen Pastor Jeff preach for a long time.
After reading through this post. It has occured to me that either I'm having split personalities or I'm so good at masking my emotions that I might actually become hypocritical. I need to do something fast.