Thursday, February 22, 2007
TIME: 10:31 PM
Jesus take the wheel. Take it from my hands, 'cause I can't do this on my own. I'm letting go(of me), so give me more chance. Save me from this road I'm on. Jesus please take the wheel.
Still not entirely sure why I've so down the past few weeks and still a little down now. But I at least know the overall reason. I've been relying too much on myself. Again. Still, I must thank God that He sent people to show this to me. Not only to show that I've been relying on myself, but to show that I'm ultimately human. Flawed and carnal. Prone to repeating mistakes, to exhaustion, to spiritual dryness. If I weren't prone to any of this either I'm a machine or I'm God. But then even machines break down at some point. And God too knows the value of a sabbath and rested on the 7th day. There are still more areas in my life that has yet to be accounted for. But I'm on the mend. Thank you Father for staying with me. And thank you Alvin for showing me some parts of what's wrong with me through our sharing.
Well CNY is over, no more visiting people, no more extravagant eats. I'm happy and sad at the same time(split personality again). But at least I can stop eatting alot. Got quite a bit of ang bao money this year. Missed the 4 digit mark by a bit. Oh well. Not motivated by money this year anyway. More towards bridging gaps between people. Think I did quite well in that aspect. Hope to do better as the year goes on. And if anyone wants me to treat because of my ang bao money. Don't bother unless there's a good reason, like I owe you something or it's your birthday and you're close to me or whatever. I hope to keep this money and buy me a better laptop next year for uni. Lol.
My shepherd and SB both in Thailand now. Hope they learn lots and buy lots so I can leech. Lol.
Thanks God.