Sunday, December 03, 2006
TIME: 12:50 AM
Ok I'll start with some whining, some emo, and then some cheerful. lol.
By the end of next week, maybe everyone can go attend my funeral. It's gonna be like parades every single day starting from this sun. COG then BMTC then OCS... AHHHH!!! Can go insane lor. Especially the BMTC one... it's like going to Azkaban, with all those dementors swooping down and sucking the happiness out of you. The only good thing about this whole thing is that I'll probably get a tan... not a full tan... but a tan nonetheless. lol.
So anyway, 1 more week to camp!! YAY!! I can finally go for my second full camp after missing 2... Gonna enjoy this camp fully, and have lots and lots of breakthroughs. I'll stay there until I get at least 1, even go without sleep(which I already most likely won't be doing on the second night.) Then after that it's all out for Christmas already(which I still haven't started writing cards... think gonna be late again. Think I can grow alot this month. Full steam! And also I found my colour for clothes!!! It's purple!!! At least I got one so far lar... see how it goes... I'm a little high... dunno why...
So anyway today, a little emotional. Had CG at Sarpino's in Meridien. And so the re-structure is officially revealed today, although it takes effect only from camp. Me and Victor moving on to the other 2 CGs. I kinda expected it already lar. Always wondered why me and Peter different CG, but expecting and actually having it come to pass is very different lar. Considering how much I dislike change(some might say dislike getting out of comfort zone...) it's actually very hard from me to constantly move on( 3 different CGs in less than 2 years.. probably broke some record) Not to mention I'm gonna have my sheep become my soon to be ex-shepherd's sheep just when we finally get some kind of connection, which leaves me with no sheep at the moment. Think if Derrick didn't tell me earlier, I'll probably end up crying or something. I wish can stay, but when God has given a new direction, new paths to explore, the best way to grow is to obey. Besides it's not as though I don't see why I'm moving lar. Still hard, still struggling, but with a heart knowing that God will make a way, will help me adapt to changes. Also, knowing that God will use a pretty quiet and terrified me to help grow the group and these changes are meant to help me grow too. Hopefully, my faith will reach new levels through this and my "walls" will all collapse like the walls of jericho did.
Getting a bit teared up already... better end off. Ciao.