Sunday, December 24, 2006
TIME: 12:17 AM
Oh happy happy. It's about to be Christmas.
This month has been a month of new and exciting breakthroughs for me. First I spoke out in front of a 100 plus ppl crowd(central). Then I found my spiritual buddy(Alvin) :P. And now today God has blessed me beyond everything He has before.
So the day of Christmas service started out on a low note. Considering that I tried very hard to invite a whole lot of ppl, think about 15 ppl at least. And all didn't want to go or couldn't make it. Imagine how crushed I was to give confirmation of 0 to my shepherd(new also-- Peter :)). I almost cried myself to sleep, asking God why this happened. It's not like I didn't put in any effort or anything. So anyway was feeling quite depressed all the way to dhoby ghaut station, where I decided to just ignore my own sadness and try to look happy for everyone else. Think it work, heh. Then at service I completely denied my emotions and just decided to bask in the presence of my God, ignoring my doubts so that I could wholeheartedly seek Him.
Now while I had no visitors with me, Peter had 2 so I could help him instead. So when it came to altar call, naturally I would share to 1 while he share to the other. Actually before this I was very nervous. Was thinking, if God didn't even let me have any visitors, will He actually help me in this?(Understand that this is spawned out of my insecurities) By the last worship song(which happen to be my current favourite-- Beautiful Saviour) however, God touched me. Filling me up with a sense of confidence in His power and my life. I felt like crying then, it seems that God always touches me when I'm feeling most powerless and down, giving me a sense of feeling that is impossible to describe, but best words are excitement and wonder. Wondering why God would actually use someone who seem to have given up hope. So anyway, it came to altar call. And I shared my life and how God blessed me ever since I came to know Christ to Wee Kiat. Things I never even thought of just came spilling out of my mouth. It's so amazing. I didn't even think I knew what I was saying. And when he agreed to go down... Aiyah cannot describe lar. So that's the first time I help someone come to know Christ. It's just simply amazing. It's amazing how God works things out. I rather have no visitors and have someone convert, than to have 15 visitors but no one convert. I can only say God really works in ways that are beyond my understanding. And I really got to just hold on to the fact that He knows what to do. So yeah learnt something today :)
Everyone enjoyed my cookies. So happy. Haha. Oh happy day.