Thursday, October 06, 2005
TIME: 10:37 PM
Ok today was like wow!
So during service usually I’m somewhat reserved… especially when I’m spiritually down…which can be classified as my feelings then…Then God spoke to me through both Shirley and Pastor Jeff. The former being during worship. She came up and talked about God is there with each and everyone of us even when we’re not at our best physically spiritually and mentally(ok I’m paraphrasing the idea here)Anyway… she then sang a song that I believe was spirit-led and that really really REALLY touched my heart and I started to tear…Then later Pastor Jeff talked about how God desires to be with us more than we desire to be with Him,and that sometimes we may have a deep relationship with him but have not the wild abandon for him or vice versa and that the best kind of person that we can be is to be both,to be at least daily seeking God over the “coffee table” so to speak. And that we need the desire for God or if we dun the desire to desire for God. Again there’s a sense of rightness in what he says that I needed to hear and again I teared…so it was like…emotionally draining and refreshing at the same time…wow so profound! Lol.
After which we went to Starhub to celebrate luke’s bday and hammy’s farewell before she transfers to YWAM. Following that a meeting and CG evaluation. And then its off to SR gardens…though I sent off luke and aquila first to hougang…lol.
Watched the Man U vs Fullham match today….and MAN U won 3-2 so like finally! They’re getting back into shape…and clement was like saying that man u won coz of giggs…lol.
I missed the last bus again….but thanks to God’s grace,I found 3 strangers whom at first ask me to help take photo…then later asked if they could share cab since it was on the way. Let’s just say that they made the trip really worth it… 8 bucks cut to 2 bucks leh…lol…hope next time can share again.
So anyway,the thing that has been troubling me in and out throughout the past few weeks? I basically spilled everything out first to Rayson then to Jon then to Clement…and let’s not get into the specifics shall we? Suffice to say that most of it has been resolved except for a part of it….
I might have been hurt and all…but never should I ever have hurt you…for all that I’ve done I’m sorry Cal. Now wonder if he sees this.
This post was prolly postponed a few days since I cant get into my create post in the blog for some reason….sianx.
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