Friday, December 17, 2004
TIME: 10:21 PM
Just realized that I'm blogging more at the band blog than at this blog...Thus resolving to change that.Anyway for thoughts of the CA trip pls refer www.ajcsb.blogspot.com for detail.
Things are getting boring after just one day of being alone at home with my whole family off in China...I have absolutely no one to talk to now...but that's ok...the worst thing is that I'm bored with my games,don't feel like doing my homework,and have nowhere to go thus making me feel like I'm rotting at home.Oh well....Can't be helped.
Watched A Walk to Remember and Drumline today.The first one was soo touching,makes me feel sad.The second one was inspiring,but makes me feel sad too,coz I start to wonder if AJ band can make that standard,not the formations and all,but the togetherness,the spirit and initiative.That's what truly powers anything.Thus far all I've seen are some peaks of morale and all...but truly?Underneath all that is nothing,at least I feel nothing underneath it,deep down its just...at most a weak bond.Maybe true unity is unreachable except in the movies,but I think there can definitely be something more than just what it is now,just wish I knew how to reach it.Watching Drumline also reminded me about the true meaning of band,its music,music that is born from togetherness,at the end the conductor/director doesn't say "let's win this",he says "enjoy playing with your bandmates".There is a significant difference between the two,you don't enjoy the music you make with each other,what you win is nothing but a name.Results are important to teachers and principals and schools and whatever,but we,the band itself,must know the most important thing and not lose sight of it.
Wow...what was supposed to be a simple entry became a band philosophy thing again....sigh.
Simple quote from Drumline that has nothing to do with above:"Some people say that the band is a reflection of the conductor/director,but the band is also an influence to the conductor/director."It means that like what Miss Tan once said...Bandmusic is a two-way thing, learn to give it to the conductor and the conductor will in turn give it to you.
One final thing,my favorite song from A Walk to Remember,I'll find some way to apply it in life soon....:
Only Hope
There's a song that inside of my soul.
It's the one that I've tried to write over and over again.
I'm awake inthe infinite cold,
but you sing to me over and over and over again.
So I lay my head back down,
and I lift my hands and pray to be only yours I pray to be only yours.
I know now you're my only hope.
Sing to me the song of the stars.
Of your galaxy dancing and laughing and laughing again.
When it feels like my dreams areso far,
sing to me of the plans that you have for me over again.
So I lay my head back down,
and I lift my hands and pray to be only yours I pray to be only yours.
I know now you're my only hope.
I give you my destiny.
I'm giving you all of me.
I want your symphony.
Singing in all that I am.
At the top of my lungs,
I'm giving it back.
So I lay my head back down,
and I lift my hands and pray to be only yours I pray to be only yours.
I know now you're my only hope.
The end