Wednesday, November 24, 2004
TIME: 10:23 PM
Tune-in in less than a week away,likewise with bandfest and only about a week to the trip to san francisco, a variety of band activities is about to unfold,excitement fills my veins...but somehow I don't feel very worked up by it.I can't wait for the trip but yet...I can...this is so confusing.Maybe cause I'm currently in a state of dispassion to band(probably due to excessive band thoughts).I don't seem to have a life outside band...and that's sad,my friends mainly consist of band ppl,so day in day out its band band and more band.Or maybe it's the fact that I'm no longer enjoying band prac anymore,or rather trying very hard to enjoy it...too hard perhaps.I think its because I don't feel anything during band now..so I can't enjoy...sigh..Hopefully going on the trip would re-inspire me to get back into my passion before it dies and I end up hating band like I did 3 years ago...
This was supposed to be a happy post that turned to my disatisfaction with myself...
So...on a happier note,I LOOK FORWARD to bandfest cause I will get to meet new friends,and to san francisco cause its somewhere new,nothing to do with band,but i think its best that i don't think about band for awhile...
Also,currently helping Andrew to do up the bass part for his song...not very sucessfully..but i believe a miracle will happen when I heck care and write...that miracle will be that the notes just automatically correct itself..haha...lame....sigh
Tried something happy,but didn't work,guess its just not the time for me to be happy yet...
Quote:Music is nothing but an expression of the heart,if the heart is non-existent,the music is non-existent.(Either I came up with this quote myself or someone said it and I remembered it...who cares?)